How many times do I have to mess up my life before I say to myself I need to do something different?
I’ll let it slide that I left abruptly after I was doing so well and learn from it in how to handle it again if it should happen again. This was my first time experiencing a factory, so I’ll let bygones be bygones. Doretta tells me that Joseph doesn’t smile as much as he used to when I was working there, like he’s missing something from his life. I did ask him when I was there, did he always smile this much before I started working there? My friend confirmed for me no he definitely did not smile before he met me (not even when he got engaged to the supposed “love of his life,”) before he met me and after I left. Even though he’s engaged to be married to the woman he thought was the only one he could ever love, one would think that would make him happy no matter where he is. Instead, he walks around with a blank expression on his face, unhappy. What sucks is that I didn’t even get a kiss or nothing out of the whole thing! If his bosses were going to act like we did something anyway, I may as well have! Ugh!
Joseph has a habit of sneaking up on people. Doretta said this happened twice where she was talking about me to our other friend Raven, he walks up behind her and asks, “What? What were you guys talking about?” when he heard my name. She told him I’m doing well now at my new job and he responds with his usual, “Oh, cool.” Somehow, some way, I wanted him to know that I’m doing fine now after everything. I said ooo that boy does miss me that’s why he’s always trying to listen in on her conversations to hear about me since he can’t talk to me. Doretta laughs and says, “He hears what he wants to hear! He’s got good ears. You know he’s always listening to us.”
Another time she mentioned, “Jessica,” she said he said, “What? What?” again. Poor boy. I told you there was no turning back with whatever you decided to do and that I didn’t want you to regret whatever it is, but it seems like you do regret passing me up. I do feel for you, maybe you needed to talk to someone how to handle me at work, but being that you’re mainly friends with bosses, you know how they get about this type of thing and I knew it wasn’t going to be pretty getting upper management involved.
“Joe went home sick early last week,” Doretta informed me.
“REALLY?! That’s not like him. I thought he’d never miss a day of work after seeing me be very dedicated no matter what condition I was in. Excuse me, I still came to work with my head busted open then stapled shut, and I still stayed being sick as well on top of that. Maybe if I was there he would have stayed. It seems like he’s not really motivated anymore when he never wanted me to leave.”
“He does get paid sick days so he’s not missing any days.”
“Still, that’s not the point, you don’t miss work ever, especially if you’re really dedicated.”
Someone’s already making up lies about me at my new work after not having been there a week, I don’t need to be crushing on another supervisor nor do I need to let the same thing happen again.
Work is totally boring when I don’t have any one to trust to talk to about crushing on people for fun or talking about life. I can’t think about Joe anymore. It just was never meant to be, unless he’s willing to risk his job to be with me, which I don’t think he will do and I don’t WANT him to risk his job on top of that. That’s his life’s work.
That’s what I don’t like about this new place. Co-workers should be friends with each other and get along since we see each other 40 hours a week at least. There’s no need for this hostility. Everyone was my friend at my old job with Joe, especially when I was meeting the quotas like no tomorrow.
I know I can’t trust any of the guys. They’re always up to no good. I can maybe trust three guys and they’re like my father figure at work always looking out for me, and “Trey Songz” who hasn’t showed up lately who I heard likes me. The one person I can trust, her name is Shantel. I told her all about someone making up lies about me and I’ve only been here for three days. She said it happens a lot at that place. I asked her why do people even tell on people? There’s no evidence that anyone ever said anything to begin with, a waste of people’s time with he said she said. She agreed. I wouldn’t tolerate this high school drama at work if I were the head honcho.
Well something is going to change because I’m not going to tolerate this bullshit when I’m just there to do my job. I barely talk to anyone as it is and someone has made up gossip about me out of thin air. Luckily, no one believed it.
I’m going to be all about my job, I’m not going to let any more nonsense get in the way of quality work. Then BOOM! He hit me. My original supervisor is on vacation so they have people substituting for him while he was away. I’ve never seen this new supervisor before around here. Oh dear God, I say to myself. History is not going to repeat itself. I didn’t get the vibe that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him the way I had with Joe. The vibe I got was that if anything were to happen at all, it would be a fun time, basically not worth mentioning at all.
To make small talk, I asked my co-workers, “So what are the hot juicy deets on people here? I was the hot topic in my last job with my crush on Joe.”
Everyone always told me about this one guy on first shift who is married. His wife is bisexual and has a girlfriend, he shares the girlfriend with his wife, and on top of that he has a whole bunch of other girlfriends on the side. Can you process that? Neither can I. I said DAMN, and I thought my life was a soap opera. The most hilarious part? They ALL know about each other. His wife and girlfriend all work together on top of that and are okay with it all! Just handling one man for me is too much work for me let alone 10 others at the same time.
When I first met him, I had no idea he was the guy that everyone was talking about. I thought to myself, “Oooo, he’s the only cute guy about my age around here that I would be attracted to.” Is he even flirting with me a little bit right now? My first time meeting Jon, he acts like he’s known me for a long time. I guess I’m just a friendly person like that. Another guy with a J name, sweet.
Jon: Are you bored yet? It’s break time for you, girlie.
Me: I could do this job in my sleep! Can you do this in your sleep?
Jon: I can do lots of things in my sleep!
Did he just flirt with me and suggest something? My roommate doesn’t think so, he was just talking and Shantel says he was being a typical guy. I like when he calls me girlie. I bet he calls other girls girlie, too, but the way he says it is cute. Keep in mind, this was before I knew Jon was the guy with all the girlfriends and wife. He does have a smooth aura about him, no wonder he gets all the ladies. He almost had me for a second before I found out who he was, HA!
Shantel: I asked him if he was married and I didn’t know he was the guy with the wife and girlfriends.
Me: You didn’t say I wanted to know did you?
Shantel: Oh, no no, I just went up to him and said, “Are you married?”
Me: That’s hilarious that you would ask that question out of the blue.
Shantel: Now you don’t like him any more right?
Me: Right, I need to concentrate on my work, like I originally said I would. This just made my day. I’m literally laughing my ass off. What a complicated life that man has.