That’s the one thing I hated about my ex-best friend of 23-years. She is the least humble person that I know. Even after tattling on me to my parents, leaving me stranded at the bar being bullied by people, you still think you’re “cool?” You have got to be kidding me! It doesn’t help that her loyal followers are feeding her incredible ego.
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Lmao lmao lmao! So I just got done talking to one of my ex co-workers on the phone. I have this unique relationship with all my co-workers. Even if I am not there anymore, I’ve still made some life time friends no matter if I was there for a short month. I got fired from a really good job and I still keep in touch with three co-workers there even if they didn’t like my work because I wasn’t putting my all into it. I’m roommates with one of my ex co-workers right now, in fact! I don’t believe in keeping work about work. If I’m going to see these people for 40 hours a week, they’re going to be my second family, not enemies.
Anyway, my friend Patrick, I asked him has he talked to Charley lately and did Charley tell him that I stalked the shit out of him for talking crap about me? He said, Yeaaaaa he did! Lol, I told Charley last week, if you wanna talk crap about me for no legit reason you’re gonna have a stalker on you for a loooooooong, long time until you get the picture who’s better than who. Charley told Patrick not to talk shit about me or I will stalk a person for doing so. That’s right, boy! You got it!
Now if only my ex best friend of 23+ years with two Ivy League degrees can learn…she knows I always put people in their places in the end, don’t know why she bothers trying to manipulate people I’m the bad guy when she’s the bad guy.
Whenever someone doesn’t want to be my friend, or doesn’t want to talk to me because they know I have a lot of personal issues going on in my life, I say, “Some of these personal issues I didn’t ask for and can’t control and things always pop up one right after another, I’ve never been able to rest. You think I asked for this life? You think I want all these problems? Fuck you if you don’t want to be a part of my tangled web. You don’t deserve the good times in my life when I become a known author and you won’t get to share the glory with me when that happens. I’m the one actually living through the troubles. What are my troubles to you? It’s not like you have to find a job every time you lose one because you’re not the one losing a job. I am. It’s not like you’re dealing with shitty so called friends, I am. If you can’t be an ear to vent to then what kind of “friend” are you? I’m not asking people to solve my problems for me, but to not cause any more problems for me than I already have.”
I’ve decided that I’m now going to cut out all the negative people. I’ve wasted enough of my time dwelling on people who don’t matter. I need to focus on getting my novel finished. I wish Charley would text me from time to time just to talk, don’t even necessarily have to hang out. I just want someone to text sometimes, Lol. Hopefully I won’t hear of him saying any more bad things about me at my previous job now that I think we finally have everything resolved and ended things nicely.
It’s always a fun time hanging out with my buddy, Doretta. She updated everyone about me and told Raven what I said about J and her response to her book. Doretta said I had everybody cracking up at my response. I said, if his bosses were going to act like I did something with J anyway, then I may as well have put on a show right in front of his bosses and got on top of him right then and there, and I don’t think he would have stopped me, either. Give me a good reason to get fired, not a bullshit one. Having a crush on someone who likes me back isn’t a crime when we didn’t act upon it.
Doretta then said something that really got to me, she goes if he would have broken up with his girlfriend/fiancee to be with me, I would have married him, right?
Of course I would have. I’m not going to break him up with someone just for that. If that’s the case, then I could find almost anyone for just a fling, but that’s not what I had in mind with J. I miss my friends and they miss me. He totally regrets passing me up and that’s what I did want him to feel after they let me go and he never saw me again since.
I’m still trying to figure out why Rachel wanted to defend Billie and Krista. It’s not like either of them are good influences on people. These girls are manipulative and bring a lot of drama into people’s lives. I’ve always been a respectful person and have a good head on my shoulders. When I had issues, most times I always resolved them on my own, especially the terrible addiction I had with something which I quit on my own which I had for 4 to 5 years (not drug or alcohol related, but it was a serious addiction). I’m still pissed. I expected better from a friendship of 23-years and she never even apologized to me. She still thinks she didn’t do anything wrong here.
I defended Rachel when someone threatened to kill her, but she figures oh, my business isn’t her “problem” even though the person who threatened her wasn’t my business, but she expects other people to do things for her without returning the favor when it came time to pull her weight. Should I have let that person kill her since she was going to let those people beat me up in the parking lot for something I didn’t do?
I forgave Rachel lots of times for going after the same men that I liked. She acted like I wrote her nasty messages out of nowhere…uh, no if she actually treated me how a best friend of 23-years should why should I write nasty messages to her to begin with? She always complained to me how her other girlfriends ditched her for boys but the one girl friend who has never done her wrong, always been by her side, almost a little too much, she treats like complete shit.
I didn’t let men get in the way of our friendship. I think she didn’t like the fact that men were interested in me for a change and not her, that’s why she went after my ex right when I introduced them? I didn’t introduce you to my guy friends or my ex so you could go out with them. You can play your own match maker, but you ruined many men friendships with me. I forgave her for that.
Seems like she doesn’t want my forgiveness now so to hell with it. And I don’t want to be her friend when she wants to associate with someone like Krista at all. I told her so it’s more important to her to keep a fake friend on her Facebook page rather than a real friend online and in real life. All she had to do was to delete Krista and this whole thing would have been done. But no, she wants to be “nice” to Krista because they have mutual friends as well. it’s not like any of these mutual friends are good people either. It’s not like she knew Krista from college. She only knew about Krista because Krista has been stalking me these past 5 years. I’ve got girls and guys stalking me, yup. I guess I’m so popular but hopefully these people have left me alone once and for all. This isn’t my drama, and I don’t associate with low lives in the first place. I like to live a peaceful life without hate and I’m too busy living my life to care about what other people are doing with theirs to bring them down.
The one thing I won’t ever forgive Rachel for, is for defending the people she knew I hated most in the world. It’s one thing to not defend me when she’s right in front of them. It’s another when her and I are alone talking about it and she still blames me. There’s no excuse for that when she knew this has always been Krista’s fault who came between our friendship. Girls who are friends should always stick together, especially when it comes to other girls picking on someone who she knew I didn’t deserve this hatred. Since Krista’s friend Billie attacked me out of nowhere, I expected Rachel to be by my side doing the same, telling Billie to back off.
Instead she was laughing with the lunatic and being friendly toward the lunatic, and actually BELIEVED what the lunatic was saying about me. She accused me of “talking shit” about Krista’s dead mom, and even if I did why should I feel sorry that I did? Her mother believed Krista’s lies about me, and almost turned me in for something I didn’t do as well when Krista is the one who started all this drama years and years ago and it just dragged on and on until this past year. I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WHO KRISTA WAS UNTIL SHE ATTACKED ME AND STARTED WRITING VICIOUS THINGS ABOUT ME OUT OF NOWHERE. I had been minding my own business working 8 jobs these past 4 years, and out of nowhere these people attack me and call me rude names when I’VE NEVER EVEN SPOKEN A WORD TO THEM UNTIL THEY ATTACKED ME.
I shouldn’t have had to pull teeth to get Rachel to defend me when this stranger Billie verbally attacked me at the bar. Billie was a girl who was always at the bar starting fights with people she didn’t know. Billie has THREE KIDS at home but I would always see her at the bar and wonder who would be at home taking care of her kids. Oh, these people deserve to be called out by their real first names. It’s not like I put their last names the way they wrote about me when they put my first and last name. I never knew who Billie personally was, and I don’t want to. She seems like a horrific person. I wasn’t the only one who she attacked. Then she had the nerve to tell the bartender I was the one bothering her and Krista. Um, no one believed them that I was bothering them given their track records to people in general.
I’m an angel compared to all these monsters, which doesn’t take much to be an angel when you’re compared to these low lives. When I told the bartender about Billie, the bartender told me other people have had problems with her as well. Billie’s got a lot of nerve to call me trash when I grew up in a middle class suburb and I always groom myself everyday. I’m not the one starting bar fights with people and getting into other people’s business…who’s trash again?
Since Krista always likes to write crap about people and put people’s first and last names, I’ll return her the favor. I don’t get why Krista thinks she’s allowed to judge anyone at all. She writes about all these blogs about other people judging her yet she thinks she can call other people sluts… Krista takes joy in sleeping with married men without remorse. What’s pathetic is she likes the married man’s pictures of his kids, but doesn’t care how the kids would feel if they found out she was sleeping with him. Krista called me a slut for the past 4 to 5 years even though she’s been with over 70+ people and none of the people she’s even been with are decent characters. She’s the town pump at the trailer park. I have class and I don’t talk to just any guy.
The only person who has never had her facts straight is Krista never having her facts straight about me. I laughed at the girl when she said I was the one who supposedly “didn’t” have the facts straight about her when I told her every information I’ve ever found out about her, has been written on her own blog because she likes to air all her dirty little secrets and our mutual friends also CONFIRMED that they were true…so how do I “not” have my facts straight? Krista’s the one that wrote about getting thrills about sneaking behind the husband’s wife’s back, and I used her words against her, then she’s going to tell me I made up stuff about her. Since I called her out, she’s marked her blog private like a coward:
She’s also had an abortion to avoid responsibilities being a parent. I’ve never killed a baby so I don’t know why she thinks she can talk crap about me at all, whether or not she even thinks I talked crap about her dead mother. The men are mostly nasty if they want to hang with the likes of her. I know one of the guys who talks to her more than me. Dave. I can’t believe Dave would like all of Krista’s shit talking statuses about me when he used to know me personally from hanging out with Jamie’s ex Cody and knows first hand I’m not this “nasty” person that Krista paints me out to be. Krista’s one to talk since obviously she hasn’t looked in the mirror when she tells other people they haven’t looked in the mirror.
Billie and Krista made up this rumor that I “talked shit” about Krista’s dead mom. The only person who talked shit about Krista’s dead mom was Krista. She was acting like Josh was better than her mom. She was angry that her mom didn’t like Josh. It’s not like Josh is an outstanding character either. Josh is the type of guy who has been going around town calling me an “easy slut” when the funny thing is the bastard doesn’t even deserve the time of day from me in the first place. I hadn’t talked to the guy in years and I still found out the guy was mentioning me after having three relationships with other people. He must have been bored to still mention me right? Damn, I forgot about that loser because he wasn’t memorable for me. If it weren’t for this drama these people caused, I would have totally forgotten about all of them. I said it’s a two-way street with being called an “easy slut.” If I’m one then he’s one as well. I’m not going to let a hypocrite think he can talk about me like that, especially when he’s ugly inside and out. I guess this is what I get for giving people chances when I don’t base it on their looks as to why I was interested in them…why was I interested in Josh in the first place? I have no idea. He’s the type of guy who likes two women fighting over him, hence why he told Krista things about me that didn’t concern her. I was fine when he went off into the air force. I never wanted to go out with him because I already knew he’s an unfaithful cheater. He cheats on ugly girls with even uglier girls. I’m never going to give people the time of day ever again who didn’t deserve it in the first place, because they’re usually the ones who brought drama in my life.
Josh cheated on all his girlfriends, including his current wife with Krista, nonetheless, who proudly bragged this on her blog as if it was a good thing. If he thinks he can cheat on me, he can think again, especially downgrading when he gets back with Krista. I am way too good for the likes of him and never went out with him. Why do these people defend Krista at all? It’s not like they are defending a worthy cause. She deserves to have no friends and to rot for all that she’s done to people, especially me. His wife Samantha is so pathetic that she married him and brought a child into the world with the cheating scum instead of left him when she found out Josh cheated on her multiple times. People like Krista and Samantha give the women species a bad name, and Josh, give men a bad name. I don’t know how these people live with themselves every night doing horrible things to people.
I’ve noticed that people who like to say nasty things about me are people that have never met me face-to-face, have never hung out with me either, and have never had any real conversations with me. Wouldn’t you be pissed if you had so-called “friend” of 23 years back stab you for no reason? Yet, the people I introduced her to think she’s so “awesome.” I hope this changes your mind about the kind of person she is nowadays. She isn’t how she used to be. People change. I’ve changed for the better while others change for the worse. People this is sad. I’ve had to deal with all this drama AFTER college…I thought people were so over this crap in high school but I’ve been harassed the most out of college. I guess this is when I started caring more about my looks and they’re jealous of my beauty or SOMETHING. High school was a breeze with very little drama. Looks like some people have nothing better to do when they get older.
I caught up with Doretta today, my best friend from the old factory where J works. Oh. my. God. She told me so not only did most of the men want me there, I just found out from her that two lesbian women who worked there also had a crush on me. Wow, I’m very flattered. All except for the one person I wanted since I couldn’t have my B, I thought I would try someone new J…And you know what though, J did like me, too…he just didn’t want to leave his girlfriend and had JUST gotten engaged with her right before I started working there. Bad timing.
She tells me people still ask about me all the time every day, and I’ve been gone for three weeks now from there! Aww. I do miss my friends. I said well I hope the supervisors always hear people talking about me. Raven is so funny she pulled out this book that reminded her of me titled, “Sexual Harassment at the Work Place” and told Doretta to tell me about it. Now I said to Doretta, tell her back, I didn’t grab his butt, and he never told me to stop flirting with him, lol. All I did was pass him two love notes and give him day dreamy goo goo eyes. Doretta said Raven’s gonna laugh at my response.
The new job pays decent. I can’t believe it here, either. I’ve only been here for three days and already the guys like me, I mean, as more than friends, Ahh!!! I am so lovable I guess. There is one dude who looks like Trey Songz and another guy who looks like Bill Cosby told me “Trey” was talking about liking me, haha. Well I’m going to keep working for a while.
Sometimes I think I’m given the path I’m given because I know I can get out of my messes. Life isn’t always smooth sailing but it’d be nice to be happy for a while instead of for a short time and life turn to shit again. I was discussing with some friends that if people were in my shoes, how many of them would be able to survive my paths? Flunking out of college thinking you won’t graduate because you get depressed two weeks you’re supposed to graduate thinking you’re never going to find a man that you want and college is over? After college, where the hell am I going to meet people? I said to myself I didn’t go this far just to not get a degree and I told my damn self to finish it up, even if it meant two years after my graduating class at a community college. A degree is still a degree no matter where it’s from.
I’m barely hanging on a thread myself. Some probably would have keeled over when I had gambled away a new car, a vacation to Australia, a new house…those years were the worst of my life but I got out of that. I knew it was because I was around the wrong people. Once I found better friends to hang out with that was never an issue anymore and I am now better at saving money for bills and the real stuff.
Sure I am grateful that I have a place to stay but I don’t know where my next month rent’s paycheck is coming from, how does that make me feel? You don’t want to know. So if someone wants to call me a loser for whatever reason, I dare them to say it to my face. I try not to turn back to my parents every time something goes wrong. All they need to do for me now is lend me a car which they have been. The rest I can handle myself. I haven’t been able to keep a job since I’ve left ND and I’m really pissed because for one reason or another some damn reason always pops up in making me leave a position. I honestly should have kept this last job I lost. They really needed me in there and I needed them, but I let my stupid romantic feelings get in the way. It makes me go insane not knowing where money is going to come from next. I’m lucky I have my own business to survive here and there so I don’t ever have to step foot in a fast food restaurant again for work, but even then, I don’t always get clients for computer work.
Sometimes I’m still upset about my past “friends” who have treated me like shit for no reason, and, they don’t even feel sorry for how they treated me. They never genuinely apologized. They expected me to be there for them, but they were hardly there for me when I needed them. What kind of a “friend” is nice to the people who are talking crap about you behind your back? You know who a REAL friend is when you’re not around and what you hear them say about you behind your back or even when you ARE around and someone is picking on you.
or the shitty guys that I have to deal with…but no man is worth ending a life over no matter how crappy it seems at the time.
I just wanna be happy for one full year, is that too much to ask?
So…I friended James’ cousin on Facebook and gave him the 411 about James.
Awww…that’s so cute we haven’t talked since 2011, and the first thing his cousin messaged me is that he’s been wondering what I’ve been up to lately, haven’t heard from me at all…What have I been up to? Trying to get into your cousin’s pants, LOL.
Little did he know I was working with his cousin this whole entire time we haven’t spoke in years. Hahaha, and James will never find out that I’m kind of talking to his cousin again…not like that, but as friends, since he blocked me on Facebook. I’m not attracted to his cousin. I couldn’t resist, I had to tell him what happened.
Lol, I told him James got mad at me and he asked me what did I do, did I try to make out with James?
Lmfao, I guess one could say that.
I really hope the cousin doesn’t hit on me again, knowing I tried to hit on James. The situation was just so weird (considering I knew of the cousin first before I ever met James — I mean I was just joking when I told a friend I bet I know someone in his family…see my gut instincts aren’t all that off! I felt like I knew someone he was related to and I do!), awkward, uncomfortable…sticky situation.
I only have one best friend from high school who I’ve never fought with over anything, never stopped being friends with her over whatever, never got mad at her for anything. They say a good friendship is put to the test if something happens, but I say some of the best friendships are ones where friends never ever piss each other off and I only have a handful of friends who have never ever in all my 27-years piss me off. Sometimes we drifted apart just because life happened, but other than that, we’re still on good terms. I know she ditched me a couple of times because she was in a bad place in her life in high school, but I didn’t get mad over it. She also has a kid. We hung out often, too, and still never pissed each other, off. I remember drawing penises all over her notebook in advance English and her mom saw all the drawings. One time when we visited her mom’s house, I couldn’t believe she still had all those notebooks I drew on after all those years. I cracked up.
Recently, she just sent me some disturbing news about herself. She has cancer and doesn’t know how long she has left and can’t see that well or something. I’ll have to call her back later when I get back from my errands. I meant to call her a while back when she gave me another number, but I think that’s about the time I was starting to write my novel. She asked me how’s my job going at my old office, but she has no idea I lost my job months and months ago that’s how long we haven’t hung out. I knew I was going to lose it so I prepared myself and saved up a couple of months of rent. Once my saved up money ran out, luckily, I’ve been getting odd jobs for my business to suffice. So I couldn’t care less what people who don’t know me think ill of me. I work my ass off for my shit and I don’t need to prove it to the haters who don’t know anything about my life.
I still sometimes wonder after I confessed my undying like to *him,* how he would have reacted around me in person at work, ah ha where we would have had to see each other every day if I didn’t get laid off before he got back. We probably would have talked it out and it wouldn’t have been awkward, but we’ll never know since I lost my job before he got back from college to work there again.
She was dating this new man, but he turned out to be a shit bag who was married the whole time they were dating and APPARENTLY had one child born during the whole time they were dating…kind of sounds like that black guy one post before, but it’s a different one. What’s up with sucky men in this freaking town? Are all the good ones really taken? She’s a mother who’s always cared for her child no matter how much men deemed her “crazy.” She never abandoned her child, unlike the men who will take care of other women’s children but not their own.