She often wonders if she will ever feel loved by someone she loves.
She felt something close to it for a while from someone far away but guesses she was not worthy enough to go the distance for.
She tries to write a story to get over it because nothing else seemed to work.
Her mind would always wander back to her lost better half.
There were times when she thought she was in “love” when she knew it was only infatuation and lust.
What she has for him does not compare to any of that.
It has been months now since they last directly spoke.
And she still cannot get him out of her mind.
Is she just doomed to be forever alone?
Who would dare try to talk to a woman who’s heart is not in any future potential relationships?
And he doesn’t seem to care, that’s the worst part.
Do you care how you make me think right now? Do you CARE?
She does not need an answer. She knows he does care but he thinks he cannot do anything about the distance when he can. He won’t try.
He left her behind which she knew was going to happen with the eight hours in between.
If only he had kept talking to her the way he used to things would have definitely worked out.