Most of my stories will be based off of true real life events. I’m sort of stuck in how I want to end my story with this unexpected no contact from my far away love. I could write two versions which would be drastic mood changes. Or should I leave it to one ending and stick with reality?
For new readers to my most epic tale I have ever told, I welcome you. Current readers who have seen us since the beginning unfold, I am happy you are still here to want to know where our journey is headed.
I told him people from all over the world was reading my blog just for our story. He said was happy for me. He said he thought that was so wonderful of you guys to love our story, when we were still talking before our argument yesterday. He’s eight+ hours away and we can’t properly see each other to talk things out in person and some miscommunication happened.
Now I don’t know how to end the story. I cannot write my ending without the star of my show and I don’t want to leave my readers hanging. It would mean a lot if we could trend the hash tag #xinsmissingstar on Twitter and if there is a way here, if you have one to let him know how important it is that I need him to finish writing. I love him because of this connection that we have through my writings. I’ve never had that with any other man before. Most of my crushes just viewed my stories as an angry woman ranting, not him, though.
My lost universe would used to tell me all the time how he thinks I’m a great writer and that meant a lot coming from him, especially my fellow readers, too, I appreciate so much all the positive feedback about my stories. He is my muse.
Xin’s Missing Star
I used to say I would only date people 1 to 3 years younger than me or 1 to 3 years older than me. Then, when people five years younger than me started talking to me more, I thought how many good people I would miss out on just because they are two years younger than my age cut off. It helped that they had interesting personalities for me to want to talk to someone that much younger than my usual preferences and they weren’t dull to talk to.
Once everyone is 19/20+ years-old, I don’t really care.
Most of the people around me are generally younger than me now. Most people talking on the Internet wherever I go are going to be younger than me.
When I first started talking to this particular 19-year-old boy, I saw a maturity level in him to match my age. It wouldn’t have worked otherwise if he didn’t act older than his age. We could talk about very sensitive topics and he had a strong character to not be freaked out by the stories I write about him. I really love him for that. What ultimately pushed him away was when I was feeling the most alone in the world last night. He wasn’t even pushed away that we had talked about semi-seriously talked about our married life together so soon when we first started talking [that's the strong character in him I admire -- you know you've found the one when they don't get freaked out about talking about marriage, not joking about it, but actually talking about it]. It was me freaking out about not being able to save up to see him this summer that pushed him away. I needed him to be there for me, instead he shut me out.
I know he is 8+ hours away. We were planning to meet this summer and we would have had so much fun had we got that far to meet. Work has been setting me back to do that with all these unpaid days off. I always see long distance couples on youtube make their videos and I wanted to make one so much with him to go with our written story.
I can’t make our long distance video without him. I lost one of my most important readers and I don’t know how to get him back: the star of the show! I didn’t mean to make him my whole entire world, but he was a huge part of it.
I now see the 19-year-old side of him. I thought he was mature enough to handle a long distance but we’re both impatient wanting things to happen soon and we can’t make that happen soon since we don’t have the funds, resources, or schedule to currently.
Anyone who has ever been in a really long distance experience, if you could tell me how your story went, I would love to hear other people’s long distance experiences. Anyone who needs someone to talk to about things, I am here for you, too.