Does it ever feel like there are a whole bunch of people trying to hook up with you who you don’t want, and the one person who you do want you can do nothing about because it’s too far away? I mean, I’d rather drive 9 hours for a day to spend with someone I’m in love with than settle for someone 15 minutes away just because it wouldn’t take long to get there.
All day today at least 5 people who are getting on my last nerves have been trying to talk sexy to me even though they ALL know I’m in love with someone, those people aren’t anyone I want. I don’t mind being friends but I’m not going to hook up with anyone unless it’s the person I’m in love with.
Jake kept trying to message me on kik and skype and when I wouldn’t respond to him on Skype he’d try to message me on kik and I keep trying to stay busy because I don’t want to do video chat with him. I would take all of these people and trade it for my baby I can’t be with. I recently rediscovered Ashanti and her song, “Baby” explains my situation so well. It’s like she knows me.
And then there’s Aaron in person who thinks he can just randomly show up to my apartment whenever and I’ll be ready to hang out when now he’s made things extremely awkward. I stayed in my fucking robe when he showed up without notice and thank God he didn’t press to stay. I’ve made it clear to him several times I’m not attracted to him, I don’t want him, and today over the phone he says he wants to give me the best orgasm I’ll ever have and I’m laughing my ass of thinking you surely won’t be the best I’ll ever have and I’m never going to hook up with you. The best orgasm I’ll ever have is if I ever get to hook up with the one person I want the most in the whole wide world. Until that happens, I won’t have had the best orgasm. Aaron was creeping me out saying that over the phone that it makes me not even want to be friends with him anymore.