Day: February 4, 2014

Not so Guarded

To love and to be loved the same in return, to be able to be together, is that not the best feeling in the world?

(Do you agree?)

After my last situation, I was done with my hometown to find love;

My hometown does not have the kind of love I am searching for.

I knew I would have to search elsewhere.

I don’t know if I was done as a whole, but then it hit me again when I least expected it to.

I’ve never felt like I’ve wanted to say those three words until now.

When you feel like you want to say those three words to someone,

you know it’s true.

If you have to think about it, it’s not real.

I know I don’t have to think about it because I want to say it

so BADLY I want to say it.

I’m just afraid of the response I’m going to get if I say those three words –

to give everything I have left and get nothing in return.

I knew this new situation I’m in was hopeless to begin with,

but I figure maybe I have finally found someone who will not let things such as distance get in the way,

when the time is right, will visit.

I knew it was hopeless, but the feeling I get with this person,

I hope it doesn’t go away because it makes me so happy it does.

I’ve never truly been the happiest until now, if only we could see each other in person.

I want to walk down the street with my babe and tell anyone passing by how lucky I am.

I’ve fallen so hard and I can’t get up.

I don’t want to get up.

Sometimes I wish I didn’t like someone as much as I do because the odds of it being in our favor are slim to none,

but that feeling I get, that feeling I get —

I’ve never felt until now and it’s the best feeling in the whole wide world!

Death will take anyone, it doesn’t care who a person is.

Death doesn’t care if you’re a pregnant wife and a pastor, nor does it care that you’re a teenage girl.

Death doesn’t care if you’re a tiny baby about to be born.  It can strike at any hour: when you least expect it.

The weather has been so horrible this year:  The coldest winter in history.

There have been so many deaths lately in the news (mostly bus related) that I don’t know if I feel right writing about a death in my story because I don’t know.  It is a work of fiction, but has been mostly realistic, that’s why I’m debating on whether or not to turn it into science fiction and maybe I can bring a character I have die back to life in some outer worldly way…I’m trying to write about as many topics as I can and one topic I haven’t touched upon yet has been death.  I just like to see what my imagination can come up with.

This is kind of like Stranger than Fiction’s debate on whether or not she should make one of her characters live.

Two of my top favorite writer movies are Stranger than Fiction and Orange County.


Rest in Peace:

*Paul Walker

*Phillip Seymour

*People involved in the Florida Church Crash –

*Tennessee church bus crash –

*Ottowa deaths –

*Indiana bus crash –

and any others I have not heard of, may all involved be at peace.