I don’t understand why James couldn’t just tell me, “I have a girlfriend, I’m not interested in you in that way, sorry.”
Instead he says stuff like, “I am not single. If I were to do anything with you, I would be cheating on someone. You’re a nice girl and you deserve a nice guy, don’t settle for me.”
Honestly, when he brought it up after I wrote him the first time, I expected him to say something like he has a girlfriend and that would be that. I didn’t expect this extra stuff implying he may have wanted something with me, too, but he didn’t want me to be the other woman.
Looking back, I at first was upset I was let go over this (although I also wanted to quit anyway), but honestly, if I could stay do I really want to see a man I’ve fallen for every day knowing I can never have him the way I want? No. Even keeping it work related there was still a strong connection. I’d only stay for my co-worker friends.
This just made my night: my second shift friend still called me after work as though I was working there. I asked her so does everybody miss me, was work boring today? She said yes, everybody is very sad you are not here anymore, even Adam. They were all asking about you.
That just lifted my spirits knowing I am not just another factory worker that comes and goes. When James gets back from vacation he will feel the same. I say good. I hope he realizes he messed up big time in letting me go and marrying his first girlfriend just because he thought he had to. If Adam feels sad, I know James will, too. This is exactly how I wanted people to feel when I am gone and I got what I wanted, especially because I was the top worker there that they ever had and something completely unrelated to work was the reason I couldn’t stay anymore. Damn my hormones and emotions.
With this new job I start Tuesday, I hope I can finally work to keep a damn job with nothing being in the way! It’s something about guitars and music…interesting since I’m a musician, and it pays a dollar more an hour than my last job.